Air Batu Campur = ABC -- > thats it means

nothing related to food actually. its relates to what happening to me now. i'm the crystal clear icy cool block of ice. then u shredded me into smaller bits so that u can fit me into the ice shaving machine. u turn on the switch, the razor shave me into tiny tiny bits, i hv become a small mountain of ice flakes.. aka snow, pure white still icy cool. just eating me like this is just too plain , u add jelly, nuts, beans, cendol, corn chucks, sago, fruits (optional) and more jellies if u like; then u add colorful syrups and a lil bit of condensed milk, last but not least ice cream as topping (optional too). there u go... u got ur ABC...

*google'd: giant ABC from some website*
*google'd via someone else's blog*

seems tasty huh?
yups... but wasnt a good news for me. this mixture of feeling really makes me feel terrible =_=
today day's MIP meeting was okay for me. but not a good news. my adviser was great ( way better than my supervisor, i'm serious... altho my supervisor is more influential. i feel super stress and panic to see her) bad news for me is that my proposal is too simple and i need to implement more advance function into my system. G R E A T. " you are a CSE student, this has no challenge for u".... OMFG... what the heck.. y am i that stupid to choose CSE in the first place. i dint know that i have choose the probably most regretful step in my life and the best part is that i just too late to realize it now.
i was so moody today, it was raining the whole evening. i sat on my table looking out to the sky.. kinda dark eh.. then i look to the street.. kinda empty ehh... then i stare... then a fulgy lizard come out of no where on the mosquito net on my window... DARN FULGY LIZARD... IT WAS LIKE... 7~8CM LONG.. WTF... =_=

*plays Love Song by Khalil Fang*

DIAM LA U... *EMO*

I HV ENOUGH OF U. I;M SO PISSED UP WITH UR FK'IN ATTITUDE OK, IF U DUN WANNA HELP ME JUST DIAM LA. Y KEEP ASKING. HOW I DO IT, IS NOT UR FKING PROBLEM. I'M NOT A PERSON THAT WANNA DIP MY FOOT INTO SOME SHYT AROUND. I'M NOT THAT MINDLESS OK. U THINK I STUPID OR WHAT? TARD? PLZ LA, I KNOW WHATS WRONG WHATS RIGHT. I JUST WANNA COMPLETE IT. I CAN EXPLAIN IT ENOUGH. THOU SOMETIME I CANT AND GOT NO FKING IDEA WHAT IS THAT... BUT SINCE I NEVER FKING BEG FOR UR HELP. DUN COME FKING ASK ME ABT IT. AND HELLO DUN EVER COME ASKING ME AND WHEN I ASK SOMETHING U GIV ME A REPLY WHICH WASNT THE ANSWER. EVEN U CAN FINISH IT AND HAND IT IN ON TIME. IT DOESNT SHOWS UR BETTER THAN ME. AND DUN GIV ME TAT FEELING THAT U FKING UNDERSTAND WHAT U ARE DOING. IF U ARE BETTER THAN ME BY MILES AWAY... THINK AGAIN, COME TO MY SIT AND U WILL KNOW WHATS GOING ON IN MY LIFE. LIKE I CARE LIKE I GONNA BEG U FOR UR FKING HELP...

dun ever come disturb me when i'm emo. i never go argue with anyone. but this just what my mind is scolding someone. i apologize that im swearing and cursing . is just an expression no hard feelings. plz ignore this post, do not be some middleman and put up fire for me... i'm just stressed, needed some space to burst. i'm fine :)

whyyy?!?!

i got this feeling again. happy sad worried restless moody hates confused angry love lost emo! *hidden meaning might be hard to understand and no names, do not be that perasan and think is urself that i'm talking bad about*

happy that i have hand in that stupid algo assignment, why the heck i even care for a stupid assignment like this. spend a night to finish up this assignment. what the heck. worried on my aplc, i dint hand in this assignment on friday. i plan EC for this. what story should i make up on. i'm kinda sad after reading at some girl's ( she hv a very nice name, valerie) deathnote for her parents brother, friends and her relatives. a very dramatic family story i can say. then, i cant believe myself was choosen in this so called " lucky draw" to be having MIP on tuesday, meeting my advisor Mr David Tan. great, i cant wait what's next. my FYP wasnt at a good stage. i got no idea what best i can impliment into my proposal. i'm lost. and yes, i have like only a 2~3hrs sleep since last nite and i'm still awake now. i have tried my best to understand prolog and haskell but i guess i have lost interest on it since last year. i continue for the sake of finishing this damn thing and get my ass off with a degree. thats all. dont worry, i'm not val, i'm a selfish girl that too 'kiasi' to die. i have tonnes of plans ahead and i'm not letting it go untill i have it in my hands ( unless i have it and i'm bored of it, i might consider throwing it away then) yes i'm that sinful maybe. i have fell inlove again into jay chou's music, i love rythme in 'wanderer's poet' and 'promised happiness'? i hope my chinese/ english transation wasnt that bad =)  i guess i'm pretty moody these few days, i have got this feeling where no matter how much i done my project. i feel like its never ending. and everytime i start doing it i got this feeling that it was right and i wanted to find more about it. after awhile i'm out of words out of ideas. i was kinda angry today i blame myself for it, it was my fualt anyway for doing things last min. i felt a fren of mine as changed for the best or worst i got no idea. i have notice that after talking one big round of a topic, the answer i had is back to the main point. and i dint really get my answer anyway. today i asked winter a situation that happend between my fren. i asked what if i'm doing the same topic of assignment with u winter, will u willing to send me ur copy for me to look see as to guide me how to progress on my work? she answered yes and why not? she trusted me. i'm so glad to hear this as i'm  thankful to have a fren like her. if u can think about this rationaly, IF u giv me ur copy of work. i would love to copy it, well i'm speechless. as i will wanna step into the pile of shyt to get myself dirty and smelly. i'm not that thick skin to beg u. if u r not willing to help out, then quit asking me abt my stuff. i really dont know if u changed or me. i just hope that i'm wrong that i'm too emo for the day and stress. even i'm not asking u to help me but stop doing that mini fly thing. i really hate it. is so annoying and doesnt help around much. recently harry's blog mention abt watches. talking about watches. i love watches. sometimes walking past them really caught my attention. especially on limited edition ones. well, as u see i love watches. but not all type of watches fancies me. well u see theres two type of watches i have so far ( i have more than 2 watches of course) theres one i walk past it for a couple of time. i love the shape and colour. after awhile i went back to the same shop to buy it. i wanted a new one, not the display version. but its last one, take it or leave it. do u think i will let it go after knowing it was a limited edition and is the last one in the shop? after walking away from it a couple of time and keep thinking abt the watch day and nite? well i did take it. another one is while i was window shopping one day, i saw it and i brought it. just that simple. but theres one part which made me in a deep delimma. to choose one. as i said i love watches. price is not the problem ( will it is problem when is over budget, assume tat all the watches currently display were in the range of price) to pick the glimmer classy look or pick the one which is simple yet elegant. i took the first option. i cant explain y. maybe i prefered that way, i prefer something that i could notice it. theres so many option that i can choose but sometime i guess i made the wrong move. theres once i decline. if i whould have that chance again i would go for it. maybe the chance i once had has dissapear, i'm waitting for a new option to come again. ( bored of watches... aiming for bags now =p)

just listen and shut up

no idea who she is... BUT i cant say NO to jazzy music =)

+_+ pls slap me bak to reality

T_T OMG.... in less than 20 days i gotta hand in my assignment and stuff and in less than 30days
is end one my sem already, lets see what else... and its HALF OF MY FINAL YEAR.
what have i done?
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OHH TOTALLY NOTHING!?!?!?
i thought of it last nite while i couldn't sleep.
YES I DID PRE-PLAN MY HOLIDAYS!!! to try to AT LEAST start on the minor assignment; TODAY IS THURSDAY.. HALF OF MY HOLIDAY TOTALLY GONE... what have i done?!!
CLING WAKE UP NOW...
=/ i did start looking into those questions... but i really need a kick start. 24hr assignment is not really my cup of "COFFEE". kinda stress for nothing actually... but i can feel the stress coming and i know its burning my ass soon.

i really cant wait to finish this dam final year of mine.... i hateeeeeee being myself (lazy-ess)

T_T toopid... so wanna quit this now