what will I be doing in few month time after i grad?

Q: what will you be doing after you grad?

had u ever confront this question when someone asked you?
well i had always failed to answer this question. my friends had asked me. my mama asked me. my aunt uncle relative asked me. even my bro's fren had ask me.
my mind had a sudden bright flash, and everything gone blank. i stared and answer " i got no idea".

years i have been studying for exam myself. and now it almost came to the end of it ( unless i wanted to continue, but fk it man... its killing me) i still got no freaking idea what am i aiming for in this 'course' i taking for like 4 years wtf!

here comes the best part. i have learned nothing! yes nothing at all for these miserable freaking years. might be something wrong with the stupid ppl from my uni changing the modules and messed up all the modules i should have learn. asking my senior i felt that they had learn stuff more than i do. stuff tat are harder challenging and advance. for example, my senior know abt UML and how to use it; i got no fking idea how and what UML looks like... i know is for diagrams but HOW TO USE? DRAW STICKMAN I KNOW LA. the winning award uni-college, yea rite. i'm the winner of all loser. thats absolutely CORRECT!

i so so so fk up screwed up with my FYP now. 30days left with a big pile of shyt for me to clean up. oh damn it... theres one more assignment for me to finish in this miserable days too.
the same question again, WHYTHEFK I CHOOSE THIS PATH!!! ( let me whine a bit more before i resume on my papers... 330am in the morning i'm so so so stressed and afraid that i miss the train). heres a black lil dirty secret. weeks ago i was a bit out of my head, i tried to lxxk for an oxxxxxxxe to xx two of my dirty work tat i struggle to xxxxx it xxx. i let a copy out and that person was likely to decline my request untill i asked " can money solve all your problem?" LOL guess what. a nice reply "this cxxe sxxxy is kinda intresting". WOAH~ i dint know the power of money is so G.R.E.A.T untill now. opps sry man, i'm just testing the power of money. i dint trust him so, i'll just suffer enjoy this myself.

was peep around strangers' blog , i'm just so envy that their life is so... erm.. lucky. with a good life, gf bf, get to travel around, get to do what they like, hving a pretty face, get what they wanted, get problems that dont expect to come, got their path on the right lane... so many more and i'm so jealous now... mine is ok la just tat im a lazyass with a super boring story with some disgusting bugger bugging me. i dont wanna repeat the story of 'that' bugger . i really had some nightmares on that. SO DISGUSTING... YUCK... if i see him again near me, i swear i will just... just... =_= i just cant do it. ahhh nvm that...


------ end. continue emo doin FYP-----

gosh!... sem break ending

i really had fun on this sem's semester break =x
weeks ago a fren of mine randomly said " hey lets go to Cameron Highlands!" i was like.. " \O.o/ okie let me try to book a stay at cameron using my dad's leisure holiday membership benifits to book a resort-apt room. =_= as usual my dad hv gold fish memories like i do. ( inherit from my dad!! tat's y i cant remember stuff!!) last min after CNY on short notice he was able to get a-day-stay for me at cameron's greenhill resort. well, we expect to hv 4 person or more to join us, sadly only 3 including me can make it. so we continue our plan on 3P =x to cameron. the resort i had is a 3 rooms apartment-resort that were able to fit in 6 people. Yups, we got a room for each person; pretty large space for us. we went around and snap some photo (uploading soon after i get it) and got really drunk that nite after playing some card games =_+ dun ask me how much i drank... i'm the loser... my last drinking session was like years ago, u cant really blame me for K.O on the 14th can of beer!! (tat's more like 1 1/1 tower?) i prefer drinking *cough* orange juice =P dun laugh at me!! (photo avaliable -comming soon) i just couldnt understand why they said i'm funny that night. whats wrong with a red face and stonning at a side suffering to vomit? well.. the person who smell his own shoe was like x100times more funny than i do. ur vote. (just in case he reads my blog, okay u are not smelling ur own shoe.. BUT WHATS WRONG WITH U DRUNK AND STILL CARE FOR UR STINKY SHOE? AND PLAYING WITH THE BLANKET? "cling u wanna be super-woman?" video avaliable soon!!)
the next morning we went to the "BOH" tea farm for breakfast, i dint take much photo here due to "someone" keep asking me to shoot photo of him ONLY. the view there was breath taking as the cafe for u to relax and sip ur warm tea was pretty relaxing.
ohh almost forget abt my STRAWBERRIES STORY! hehe, I LOVE THE STRAWBERRY MILKSHAKE WHICH COST ME RM5 per CUP... well it was cheaper than a cup of coffee from starbucks anyway, was WORTH IT; sugar , milk and not to be forgotten fresh strawberries blended in a blender ; the sour sweet a light milky with a STRONG FRESH TASTY AROMA OF STRAWBERRY in every sip... was heaven! (had 2 cup in two days stay in Raju's farm, cameron *if i'm not mistaken of the farm name; if i were wrong the next time u go there just find equatorial hotel.*, O.o addicted!!) we did went to the market to buy some fresh strawberries too... 3 packs for RM20 ; dont know if it was cheap or not. but the joy of spending on aromatic fresh strawberries worth alot more than buying uneatable roses =p --- i just enjoy highlighting all the strawberries in pinkish red! PHOTO UP SOON!!

after the "adventurous" trip we 'hunger' for more excitement!! going to Penang for FOOD! kekeke... i miss the food already!! mouth watery penang laksa!! O-Jien!!(fried oyster) cendol!!! LOBAK!! and the famous fry KUEY TIEW!!! AHHHHHHHHH!! *drools more than meeting hensom boi* 5 meals a day in penang.. a hungry trip not meant for weak stomaches =D ( darn it.. when i came back to kl i hv rediculously gain freaking 5kg!! OMFGBBQWTFLOL)
at nite was even amusing! my two tiko fren love to watch the seafood of the famous shell-fish aka 'lala' on the streets ourside clubs and pubs. we had a cup of drink and seated for awhile. dint really went in to club coz 3P cant do anything much.. plus HELLO HOW ABT ME? we had also notice that in penang the ratio of girls are higer than guys in the island of penang. where has all the guys gone to? KL? no wonder in ladies nite @ KL clubs become ghey's nite so often =X
after the light alcoholic c0cktail we had in the pub... =_+ a fren of mine said he feel dizzy.. WHAT? A CUP NIA U CANT TAKE IT. was like... duh.. nvm

the last day was kinda rush coz my fren need to go back to kl to meet his working partner or something i guess, we had our "high-tea" at around 4+ pm for seafood. at tambun i think? was a fishing village with a few restaurant neat the stinky river =_=
the food there kinda cheap thou, we ordered for like 7~8 seafood dishes and only costs us abt RM92?
hehe i been there years ago but dont really know the price coz wasnt me the one who foot the bill =X

back to kl with some corns, sweetpotatoes, a bottle of honey, some vegi for my mama, a box of penang famous balls biscuits "kim hiang" and a bunch of dirty laundry for the washing machine

eh i should be refine my FYP DOCs.. wtf am i doing here +_+...
happy valentines day to all couples and
singles! keep flirting!!

pre-feeling-fire-burning-my-ass

=_+ hate hate hate hate hate ...... hate this feeling when i keep asking myself to finish up something and i keep giving myself excuse to do it tomorrow. who is that smart fella who come up with the sentence " there;s always tomorrow"? i had been using this and keep telling myself theres always tomoro while i wanna start doing my project?!? ahhhhhhhhhhhh!
i dont have much time left and i'm tat lazy-ass-gurl slacking around knowing my project gonna fail yet i'm still here WHATS WRONG WITH ME... i know seeking help is an option. outsource is a better option? =P but kinda sick and tired of this. can someone just do this dirty job for me!? +_+
maybe money can always solve these problem. i wished i had more money =D sometime i really felt that theres always someone that can solve my problem but not really willing to help me out coz i'm just ignorant and lazy. yes i said it i'm fking lazy when it comes to doing something like.... 'assignment/ project' sometime i really hope for JUST LE ME SIT 100% ON THE FREAKING EXAM ... best part is i'm really bad at managing my time slots. i would rather sit and glue my ass on the chair playing with something that really caught my attention.
i felt some people around me changed alot. mayb i did changed. and everyone else changed. towards me? or issit i changed to the level of making everyone else trying to adding barriers in between. trying to avoid trying to giv excuses like i did to myself. yet so far and even further. even close, the feeling of spontaneous in between wasnt there anymore. the words i heard might not be so true after all. or mayb is just to somehow entertain me and urself. i regret what i did. i'm always on the wrong time at the wrong place choosing the wrong path doing the wrong things the wrong person. why on earth i choose this path, just wish it could be a thousand times more simpler!!!

hehe anyway i'm just trying to express my 'emo-ness' GOING FOR A HOLIDAY SOONNNNN~~~~~ take a good break and will be back to suffer for a month or so

all time fav O_o

all time sexy guys i'm talking about... =D
which i DID really enjoy watching and reading about... MIGHT be weird too...

----- Jay Chou ------



























guess who's next? should be another singer... yes it is RAIN... BI
*drools* i love him as a dancer... O_O you can google for his photo. i'm afraid my saliva drooling all round my keyboard

next is daniel wu the HK actor, kevin cheng the HK actor too... lets see who else...
yea i prefer yellow skin =x how abt barack obama?

















opps he's not yellow skin... BUT HE GOT A BODY TO SHOW!!!! looks like david =x














never mind the two disgusting body above.... my all time fav still goes to~~


*whistle~* sexy ass =x HIS ACT IS SEXY... his ass is also sexy... his short tight pants is the sexiest..
kinda forgotten for awhile after he got married real life... untill i saw a game show in TV on CNY...
with few other jap celebrities. HARDO GEI... is still HWAT =D *HOOOOOOOOOOOO*

*search youtube for more hardo gei in action HOOOOOOOO*

after cny post

i hate cny....

1st- i'm OLDER?
2nd- i celebrate cny by helping my mama while my sis get emo after my mama ask her do some tiny little things...
3th- get summon by relatives to find/ show a bf ( =O hire part time boy fren?)
4th- LOU SANG.... wtf la everyday also lou.... one day lou few time.. i need diet ok!!?!?!
5th- pre-cny shopping, i DO love to shop. but those RED clothes i brought never really wear more than once? ( i dint buy any RED clothes =p i brought a few set but never wear yet... HVNT WASH YET!) but i luv my new jeans tat i brought it for 18x after trying out in the same shop for 1hr ++ keeping my bfs waiting =X sry
6th- gamble.... +_+ i lose moneh to Mr Lim... i will get back from u SOONNNNNNNNN!!!!
7th- cousins!!! stop coming in to my room and beg tat u wanna play MAPLESTORY!!! IS MY GAME!! =x and also stop bugging me to turn on SPONGEBOB PS2 FOR U!! WE HAD MOVED ON TO PLAY XBOX NOW!!
8th- FOOD?!?! =p i made my move by not eating too much this year. gonna shyt it out anyway, y eat more than u needed?!?
9th - no more i guess...

=P thinking how to spend all my angpao monehs not much also and not gonna keep in bank this year..
and start my freaking FYP
after tat i can go for a FEW weeks holiday to somewhere as in drafted plan.

and special thx to one of my bestie BRIGHT FOR THE "weird snack" u brought from bangkok and thx to bright's mama for the "lap cheong"