a bit of everything

my friends often ask what am i doing these days. i could only answer that i'm on study week. but it doesn't really answer their questions on what i am really doing. why? coz i'm doing nothing for sure :)
i'm wasn't proud of it at all. i'm SO bored and tired of this course. yea i hated it so much that on one of my previous assignment i planned for an EC form for it. i just cant wait for this freaking 4 months to end as fast as possible. why not just quit this misery? =_= how i wish to quit this shyt. but i cant, i'm always a person that likes to do something that i never tried before and after getting it, i quit doing it when i feel bored. simply the excuses of "i'm bored", but the real excuse that i had is that i'm not motivated. no matter how much i have push myself of doing so, after awhile i hated it. well i remembered when i was still a kid my mom sent me to english classes. i kinda hated it coz i used to be a very quiet girl, anti social and always stare blindly onto something. ( yea a dummy girl) my childhood was just an average memory to classify. in my pre-skool my mom sign me up for ballet classes ( quit after pre-skool)... in school i was often bullied by other girls and always pick on me to do something. ( =/ sad rite? half is true) and studies was average in some private school.. then moved to another private school and meet some better friends. here some some dramatic part where... " choose me to be ur best frwen forever" comes in. did many dirty tricks on a good pair of good friends and one of them somehow become my best friend. then requested my parents for money to sign up onto some art class, drawing some really cool and cute anime ( i got no idea what is that last time when i was like... 12? ) so called created like 5~6 pieces of art and then quit. bored of it coz i no longer go to that art class with my so called best fren that time. coz i made "NEW" and better friends.
move on to high school, i saw my childhood fren playing musical instrument; a guitar. again i asked my mama to let me sign up for music classes, buy me a guitar i will learn it forever. ( hehe my mom did really let me buy a guitar for like rm 500 for my first acoustic guitar) then i was bored again... those song i learn was not challenging at all. then i asked my tutor to get me an electric guitar (abt 1k++ with a mini amp) after i quited the music center and resume my lesson under his private classes. after awhile i left that classical guitar was the best suites me, i dig up my savings and buy myself a classical guitar which is kinda cheap... rm 100+ total lesson i end is at grade 7 or 6 standard...which i took abt 2yrs + to learn ( i dint take any exam, so it was not official) my reason to quit this time was i need to study for PMR? i still remember that time was like so popular among my classmates, me and winter knows how to play the guitar and showing off to everyone in class what song we know :)
so far the best year in my school years was in 4 and 5, where the greatest challenge was to be prepared for this stupid exam in yr 5 SPM. i admit i wasn't the best student in my year, but i get myself into the best class in the entire school. yeaps... it was going into pure science. it was pretty shameful when to see other classmates to score 100% in their maths papers, or when they score less than 90% they will circle their subjects they failed to get the perfect score. what i score? i'm ashamed to tell ... i did failed 'some' of my subjects. i went for tuition classes to refine my studies and some miserable 3 month focusing on my add maths. and chemistry. i missed those days alot. i missed my seat in class, i missed my friends that sat beside me, i missed the homework i copied, i missed the books i had that i never even use it. comes to think of it.. i hate my classes now.
opps i hv been whining too much now.. fast forward ... i went for language class since beginning of this year, then i was like tired of it coz of the admin of the language central sux! wtf... was kinda emo over them.. i called up for booking... and it happened for like few times that some of them never put my id on the booking. i hv to return home for this and miss quiet a few lessons. sometime i was too busy and forgot abt it. i guess i never attended my jap class for like 2month+ already... =_= and i paid 1k+ for the entire course that i couldn't finish
result..... i know a lil bit on how to draw and colors, could remember a lil on how to play guitars, able to speak, write and read a lil on jap. yea a bit of everything is me ... hehe same on guys i guess after i'm bored with u.. byebye? XD