what will I be doing in few month time after i grad?

Q: what will you be doing after you grad?

had u ever confront this question when someone asked you?
well i had always failed to answer this question. my friends had asked me. my mama asked me. my aunt uncle relative asked me. even my bro's fren had ask me.
my mind had a sudden bright flash, and everything gone blank. i stared and answer " i got no idea".

years i have been studying for exam myself. and now it almost came to the end of it ( unless i wanted to continue, but fk it man... its killing me) i still got no freaking idea what am i aiming for in this 'course' i taking for like 4 years wtf!

here comes the best part. i have learned nothing! yes nothing at all for these miserable freaking years. might be something wrong with the stupid ppl from my uni changing the modules and messed up all the modules i should have learn. asking my senior i felt that they had learn stuff more than i do. stuff tat are harder challenging and advance. for example, my senior know abt UML and how to use it; i got no fking idea how and what UML looks like... i know is for diagrams but HOW TO USE? DRAW STICKMAN I KNOW LA. the winning award uni-college, yea rite. i'm the winner of all loser. thats absolutely CORRECT!

i so so so fk up screwed up with my FYP now. 30days left with a big pile of shyt for me to clean up. oh damn it... theres one more assignment for me to finish in this miserable days too.
the same question again, WHYTHEFK I CHOOSE THIS PATH!!! ( let me whine a bit more before i resume on my papers... 330am in the morning i'm so so so stressed and afraid that i miss the train). heres a black lil dirty secret. weeks ago i was a bit out of my head, i tried to lxxk for an oxxxxxxxe to xx two of my dirty work tat i struggle to xxxxx it xxx. i let a copy out and that person was likely to decline my request untill i asked " can money solve all your problem?" LOL guess what. a nice reply "this cxxe sxxxy is kinda intresting". WOAH~ i dint know the power of money is so G.R.E.A.T untill now. opps sry man, i'm just testing the power of money. i dint trust him so, i'll just suffer enjoy this myself.

was peep around strangers' blog , i'm just so envy that their life is so... erm.. lucky. with a good life, gf bf, get to travel around, get to do what they like, hving a pretty face, get what they wanted, get problems that dont expect to come, got their path on the right lane... so many more and i'm so jealous now... mine is ok la just tat im a lazyass with a super boring story with some disgusting bugger bugging me. i dont wanna repeat the story of 'that' bugger . i really had some nightmares on that. SO DISGUSTING... YUCK... if i see him again near me, i swear i will just... just... =_= i just cant do it. ahhh nvm that...


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